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Thursday, October 05, 2023

Tale of the lost pony


 

Well, all right then.  The sun has crested the hill.  I’ve done my chores.  I’ve added nectar to the two hummingbird feeders, filled the three bowls with kittie kibble, and tossed a bunch of alfalfa into the corral for the horses.  I’ve brewed a cup of hot tea, and it’s time to tell a story.

As pets, horses can be a big expense.  Aside from the joy of admiring these handsome huge creatures and getting the occasional affectionate face hugs from them, they need to offer more to make it worth it. One should be able to climb up their backs and be carried out into the day.

Patas Blancas has been through various efforts by three different people to train him, in his four years. Lack of continuity has been our downfall.  It is high time that he cooperate and accept the saddle and bit.  In fact, he does accept certain people on his back.  But to give a good ride is yet beyond his reach.  He is willful.  A good horse will not only accept a rider, but will agree to also work together with the rider to accomplish a mutual goal.  Although he is healthy, and in the spring he was even fat, I have been negligent in his care.  I have made a firm commitment to turn over a new leaf.

Each morning at dawn I separate him from his filly, and lead him to a small enclosure.  Knowing a hungry horse cannot think of anything but food, I give each of them a small portion of alfalfa.  I keep the filly in the corral so that she will not be a distraction to him.  I go back in the house for my morning prayers and first cuppa.

My theory is that in fifteen minutes a day, he will slowly learn to understand and accept basic commands.  I lead him in moves around the 25 foot long rectangle, on a rope, and at the end of each revolution he is rewarded with a slice of apple. 

One day I was returning from a shopping trip to town, when I saw a yearling colt standing in the road, at my fence, communicating with my two horses.  I left the gate open, and he wandered in.  I had no idea who he was or where he came from, but wandering free on the road could not be a safe option for him.  I did not put him in the corral with the horses, but left him free to give them time to adjust to each other.

I started putting notices on my Facebook page, knowing that a few local women followed it.  No one responded.  For three days, I wrote reminders that the little guy was still here, waiting for his owner.  I went around asking if anyone knew of a missing pony.  I found out where the center for registered brands is located, in Canatlan, and went there.  The young man took a copy of the horse’s photo and said he would end out a notice to his list.  Days passed, and still nothing. 

Pony walks up to the fence and goes nose to nose with the filly for a moment.  Then suddenly she draws back and whinnies; an unseen message passed between them, and she did not like it. 

When they are all freely grazing around the two acres here, the pony keeps his distance.  When the pair go down the embankment to the riverbed pasture, he follows along behind them at a safe distance.  They all spend hours down there grazing.

They all three come back up and continue grazing.  If the pony gets too chummy, Patas lunges for his neck.  If he gets too close to the filly, she aims a hind kick at him.  I feel sorry for him.  It looks like they are not accepting him.

Sometimes he goes down to the riverbed alone.  I might bring him his morning rations of alfalfa down there, where he won’t have to fight the othr two for it.  The undergrowth is so thick there that I can walk the length of the area and see no sign of him.  He senses my presence, and before long reveals himself to me.   

One rumor had it that a woman at a ranch called La Luz was missing a horse.  Not knowing where that was, I drove to Rancho Seco, the nearest town down the road and heavily invested in horses.  I drove slowly down the dusty roads looking for someone to ask.  One old man sat on a stone under the eaves; I asked him; no.  I drove on a little further, and saw a bent old man leaning on a cane in the street in front of a car and a house.  He said he knew of this place.  As he described its location, towards the town of Sauceda, I knew that was too far a distance for this horse to wander lost. 

The untamed horse now walks after me, looking for food.  He follows me to the stable, and I close the door behind him.  My firewood guy rides up on his motorbike, asking about the sale of my two horses.  We agree on a price, at the moment he has the money but it won’t stay in his pocket long.  I am not ready to part with them.  I show him the pony and ask if he recognizes him.  He does not, but while the guy is here and the pony is enclosed in the stable, we put a harness on him.  First the guy makes a lasso of a thick rope, and tosses it over the resisting head of the pony.  It slides nicely into place, and we have the means to hold him still while we put the harness on him. 

This week the moon is full.  I am awakened by a strange noise, a thud.  I put on slippers and walk outside into the moonlight.  The two horses in the corral are close to the fence.  The pony is just a few feet away, standing by the locked stable where the hay is kept.  I walk up to him and talk with him a bit.  The still night air is magical.  He remains very still, relaxed, aglow with moonlight.  I freely pat his nose, and then his neck.  It was a tender moment.  My filly had been with me a month before she would let me touch her like that.

After a week, I heard that Tocho, here in El Pozole, had lost a pony.  I drove to the last known residence and left a note in the door.  I returned the next day, and found the note untouched.  I knew he had another place, out towards the Sierra.  One time when my horses had wandered off from the river onto the other bank, he had put them within his gates and, after a day, came on his motorcycle to tell me I should keep my horses in check, they were causing damage, the usual tirade.  that day I jumped in my car and followed him the few miles out.  There I saw my horses out in the distance on a slight hill, mixing with the cattle.  There were no damaged fences or crops in sight.  My horses do not rampage.  I called them to me, they ambled down the hillside in their own good time, and walked out the gate I had opened for them.  They returned the way they came, to the riverbed, across, through our fence and up the embankment to their corral.  That’s how I knew that Tocho had another place.

This day I drove back out to that place, as best as I could remember it.  In the dusty roadway there are various tracks leading off into other fenced pasture lands.  I could not find the gate and hillside I had in my memory.  Frustrated, I turned around and headed home.  I had not gone but a few yards when a motorcyclist, passing on the left, greeted me.  I recognized him as the youngest son of Tocho, the youth who had first tried to train Patas Blancas.  I threw my arm out the window and hailed him to stop, as I fumbled with the other hand to switch off the radio. 

I told him I found a pony.  A broad smile melted his face.  “You found my horse!” 

I drove back home, and waited for him.  After a while he returned, with a length of thick rope.  While I waited, I went down to the riverbed side of my property, where the three horses were.  The pony followed me up the embankment, no doubt in hopes that I would have some alfalfa for him.  I got him into the small stable, and closed the door. 

I showed the kid to the stable.  He went inside, and fashioned a halter with the rope he brought.  He removed the harness I had put on him.  While the kid went to bring up his motorcycle, I held the horse still and calm.  I said my goodbyes to him.  He is a sweet pony.  The kid led the horse away behind his motorcycle.  I thought my horse would be happy to be rid of him, this intrusion on his well-ordered life as king of the pack.  I was wrong!

Patas was in the corral as the pony was led away.  He went ballistic!  He whinnied angrily.  He galloped down the length of the corral towards the gate, whinnying noisily.  He galloped back and again, at full speed, to the corral gate, and back again towards the road.  He did it again, dancing and bucking.  It was quite a show.

I think I learned something that day about the nature of the horse.  He had put the colt through days of hazing, teaching him lessons he needed about his place in the herd.  Patas was not rejecting the pony, though it might have seemed that way to me.  As the leader of the herd, he was nurturing him, teaching him the way of horses, teaching him his place in the pecking order.

I am always humbled, when the horses teach me something, increasing my awareness of the nature of these most noble of beasts.  I have waited literally all my life to finally realize my dream to have my own horse companion.  I cherish every day, knowing our time together is so short. 


Here is Cinderella at dusk



Blancas and me, signing off



Saturday, July 22, 2023

A different approach to Transgender

 It seems to me that transgender rights are administered unequally across classes.  ‘Gender reassignment surgery’ is very expensive. What about all those who feel dysphoric about their gender but don’t have the thousands of dollars needed for surgery?  I would hazard a guess that those who can buy the surgery are a minute percentage of their lower-income siblings.

I hear the stories of children who knew at a very young age that ‘something was wrong’ inside them.  They did not share their gender’s interests.  Boys who wanted more colorful or frilly clothes, and who preferred playing with dolls than ball and bat.  Girls who preferred to climb trees, wrestle, and learn to use tools under the hood of a car were traditionally called ‘tomboys’, but with budding breasts were forced into a different social class.

These children suffer depression as they grow towards maturity.  Why is that?  No doubt they experience bullying, name calling, and ostracizing from both sides of the gender line.  As a teenager experiencing new hormones, depression can occur, it is part of the experience for many, but for sexually dysphoric youth it is deeper and more terminal. 

Parents seek help, when they see their child suffering this treatment.  They may assume that the medical professionals have an answer, so they haul these young people off to a doctor’s office.  There they may find antidepressants, or hormone blockers.  For more desperate patents, treatments of estrogen or testosterone are condoned.

One day it occurred to me that maybe our culture is heading down the wrong path.  After all, theologians who have studied such things tell us that we choose where we will be born, in order to work out our path to spiritual awakening.  We choose our family, our siblings, our gender.  That being the case, how is it possible that we made a ‘mistake’ in the gender we chose?  Sorry, folks, but I don’t see that as a possibility.  We were born with certain personality traits, yes.  To assume that means we don’t have the body to match the personality does not make sense.  Is medical intervention the answer?  Only because we are thinking too small, too ‘within the box’, can we not see our way clear to a more equitable solution.

It is society’s reaction to the choices of these dysphoric people.  I see in my mind’s eye a feminine person, with dress, ruffles and flare, in full makeup, and a beard. 

What about the female to male transition?  I see far less of that on reality TV shows.  It is much easier for a woman to pass as a man, externally.  Does she want to perform like a man sexually?  Lesbians have been using strap-ons already, so why would surgery be necessary?  And when else does a penis come into play?  In a locker room?  That, again, is a societally-conditioned response.  Does that require surgery to change?

I envision a society, a culture, where people can express themselves naturally, without fear of being criticized, ridiculed, ostracized.  I don’t think it necessary for an athlete to compete outside their biological gender to feel fulfilled.  Boys feel more comfortable running with a group of girls?  Let them!  Just not when competing in the Olympics.  Girls want to run with the boys? Work harder in the gym.  Again, not in the Olympics.

If such a culture existed, a person could learn to live with the hormones they were biologically programmed to have, without feeling dysphoric. 

You get the idea.  Not necessary to belabor it.  I do wonder where I have missed the mark, since I am not part of this gender-dysphoric community.  Were I to write my biography without specifying my gender, it might well be ambiguous.  I have not lived a traditional role.  That, however, does not qualify me to speak for this community.  There may be things I am missing.  Surely that is so.

I never hear this subject debated.  I hear that people are fighting for their LGBTQ rights.  I would like to hear the terms of that movement extended.  If society accepted people who are ‘different’, if the roles dictated by society were to be reevaluated and modified, would people feel the need to be so vocal, so ‘in-your-face’ about their differences and different needs?  Would they still feel the need to organize marches?

My voice is not loud enough to engender a conversation over this different perspective.  I wish it were, because the unhappiness of such a large number of people disturbs my spiritual tranquility.  I would rather see a solution that comes from the minds and hearts of people, from growth in spiritual awareness, than from the medical profession mangling the beautiful human body.

Wednesday, July 05, 2023

Proposed feud solution

 

Todo con cerca o nadie con cerca

 

Para alcanzar paz entre vecinos, para vivir en paz y harmonía, se requiere:

A.      Humberto Diaz Rodríguez (Beto) cerca su terreno particular por orilla lado nordeste, separando terreno público y terreno privada, con portal cerrado que da acceso cuando se necesita.  Este alambre será terminado por 15 de Julio, 2023

B.      Por medio de vecinos buenos y mostrar buena voluntad, Beto ofrece compartir usa del estanque (lo cual es por terreno público, pero lo mayor parte coloque en el terreno contiguo del privada de Luz de Compasion) por lo cual tiene certificado usa agricultura del Conagua,) el parte este entre el arbole grande y orilla.

C.      El terreno público será apartado entre el parte que contigua del terreno de Beto and del Luz de Compasion a la latitud 24°35’16” N 104°47’28” W

El alambre que se construyó por Luz de Compasion será reestablecido como fue antes de Beto lo movió en mayo 2023.

 

D.       Al caso de Beto intenta hacer más larga el estanque que existe en porción de terreno público contigua al terrena de Luz de Compasion, se hace al sur del alambre este, sin molestar alambre suyo. 

 

Le ley Federal que dicta este terreno se encuentra aquí:  Articulo 27 y Articulo 113, Constitución de México

 

 

 

 

Firmado por                                                                                                     Testigos:

 

Humberto Diaz Rodriguez                                                                           1.

 

Luz de Compasion (Satina Anziano)                                                        2.

 

water feud and ineffective law in Mexico

 

Hollywood found their own gold mines in developing stories about the American west and feuds over water and land rights.  Here we are, in the twenty-first century, living out these same feuds.  Society has grown, we have electric cars and AI, but humanity continues running on its own basic instincts.

I have written here in this blog about the water feud with the neighbor on my north side, Juanito.  The lovely meadow below his property lies fallow, while he locks his horse up in a hot tiny yard of an ancestor’s abandoned adobe house with dried weeds for food.  The poor creatures bones grow more and more pronounced.

The neighbor on the south side continues to flex his muscles unchecked.  The way the politics are set up here, a small hamlet like El Pozole gets to elect for a three-year term someone who will function as the ‘law’.  When Gloria held that post, I mirrored the other old ladies in calling her the Mayor.  Now that elected post has fallen to Beto, who is called the Judge.  He got the vote, in my opinion, because the other candidates running were various brothers of one very large family, and loyalties of the rest of the village were split among the brothers.  In other words, this unpopular candidate won by default.

Barred from Juanito's pleasant meadow, the horses still needed a safe place to graze.  Their corral is just prairie dirt before the rainy season.  I needed access to the public land contiguous to my land.  Beto, at the time this hectare was sold to become Luz de Compasion, put up fences around that piece of public land and applied for a water permit for exclusive use of the little pool of water that lies within its borders.  I asked him to be a good neighbor and let me use my piece of land, if I would enclose the south side with a fence so my horses would not stray to his land.  He said no.  I called upon the powers that be in the municipality, that being an office called ‘sindico’, and a mediator judge.  The word translates to ‘union’, but I have no idea what factions comprise it.  First two guys from that sindico office came, to assess my complaint.  They were stunned to see the public lands enclosed by fences. 

People live here as they did one hundred years ago.  What laws may have changed in the intervening years seem to have escaped the awareness of these people.

These guys called another meeting, such as we had when Juanito complained about my use of his well.  Beto also attended that first meeting, because I was asking for access to my land.  The lady judge, Juanita, came to this meeting, with her assistant Chayito.  Begrudgingly, Beto agreed I could open up the fence that separated my land from the public land, as long as I put up a fence on the south border confining my horses to ‘my’ public land.  The subject of the little pond arose, I asked for a small piece of it for use by my horses.  He apparently agreed to share.

Sadly, nothing was ever written up.  No notes, no reports were ever recorded.

It took me a week to assemble the materials and the workers, but the fence was done while Beto was coincidentally visiting his brother in California.  He was secretive about the length of his visit, telling one person one thing and his boss another. 

Beto returned, and was not happy with the results.  Another meeting was called, and again Beto agreed that I could continue access of a small portion of the pool. 

Beto then proceeded to tear down my fence, and move it about ten meters further north into what should have been the land contiguous to my property, thus cutting me off from access to the pond.  What treachery.  I cut the barbed wire, so my horses could continue their occasional five-minute frolic in the water.  But then there was no barrier to keep them from then proceeding onto the public land contiguous with Beto’s private land, and, uhoh, his private land, because he never enclosed that with fencing.

Beto is jealously protecting this pond, 'for his cows'.  These cows come to this three-hectare site only for a few months each year, about ten of them, during rainy season.  They have a tank of water for drinking, which is on Beto’s private land, provided by the municipal irrigation water system that happens to be located on this piece of land.  Since he never enclosed his property with fencing, the cows have access to this large span of property.  These are not dairy cows, but saleable meat on hoof.

There are laws governing this Federal land.  This land is a flood zone, an eco system.  The laws governing its use, so that the flood zone maintains its function.

It is to remain open, no one can construct barriers (such as fences).  It is not to be used for commercial purposes, such as grazing cattle meant for market.  The natural springs and pools appearing there are not to be interfered with.  No damming them, no expanding them.  No permits are to be issued for private use of their waters.

Another section within the Mexican Constitution pertraining to water rights says that if the pool of water, for which you obtained a certificate for private use, is not being used as intended and stipulated in the certificate, the certificate should be invalidated.  This pretty much describes the situation, but is there any force behind this law. 

There is the law, and then there is Beto.  'And never the twain shall meet.'

I have tried the legal process.  Four times, the mediators have come out to the property to meet with my neighbors and settle these disputes.  The terrorist on one side has won.  I have access to my well, but I do not put my horses down into that lovely meadow anymore.  He does not put his hapless horse down there either, unfortunately.

Beto, however, is recalcitrant. He may have paid lip service to an accord allowing me a little access to ‘his’ pond, but out of the sight and hearing of the mediation committee he has reneged.  And so it is time to call upon the true law of the land.  Not the municipally sanctioned ‘syndicates’, not the mediation judge, not the police.  The organized crime group is the only reliable muscle.  This is what I have always been told, and so I am putting this truth to the test.  I have taken my complaint to the storefront in town where the chiefs hold court.  I had to wait many hours over various days until a chief was free to speak with me, but I finally got a hearing.  He has called a meeting between me and Beto for two days hence.  I reacted with fear at the words, but he reassured me that it would be fine.  I really don’t want to try to talk with this man, Beto, again.  His evil is so intense that it scares me.

I am surprised to hear that mediation was also a first step with these people.  I think they take their responsibility seriously.  Let us hope so!  I will ask for deadlines for the fence to be built, so that he can not agree to the face and drag his heels when pressure is off.  I had been told that the MO for enforcement was that the first step was a certain number of whacks on the back with a bat, like three or five.  If the person does not comply after that, a limb might be broken.  This is the rumor.  Now I will find out the reality.

And two days later, I arrive primed for confronting Beto yet again, with the map and ‘acuerdo’ in hand at the little storefront with the sign ‘SIX’ above the door.  The young man who sits at the horseshoe desk in the unlit back of the store called his chief when I arrived.  There was no Beto in attendance.  And so I was told, once again, that I needed to come back again tomorrow, same time.

I have to wonder just how much attention this ‘chief’ is giving this situation.  Does he not know that this situation has already been mediated four times, with the same null results?  I have documented in a nutshell the summary of these talks, the reasonable solution.  I have decided that I will not again endure facing Beto, who lies as easily as breathes.  If this alternate justice system cannot deal with this situation either, then I have to give up, surrender, be the victim.

Yesterday I went down to the riverbank to explore more closely how things stand now.  Beto has reinforced the fence he put up on my side of the public land, without access to the water for my horses.  I climbed over to his side of the fence, and took pictures of the fence lined up with LdeC buildings seen clearly through the trees.  His boldness is brazen. 

The horses followed me down to the riverbed.  I did not tie them.  I cannot leave them there tied, because they wander and wrap the ropes around shrubs and trees, until they can no longer move.  I left them there, and went about my investigating.  When it was time to go back home, I looked for the horses.  I did not see them.  I followed the hoof prints on the soft ground, walking quite a way to new turf.  On the other side of the riverbank the fencing is in poor condition, so that the horses crossed inland.  I continued a ways in towards the edge of the broad riverbank.  I climbed up the embankment there, seeing that there was a fence line perpendicular to the rise.  That is when I saw two mules, inside the fence across the river.  My horses were so excited to discover these new friends, they romped and tossed their heads, vocalizing.  In their excitement I was a little worried they might trample me, they were so including me in their joy.  I called them, I put a rope on Cinderella, and they followed me back down the embankment towards the river.  I tempted them with pieces of carrots.  And then they had enough of me, and ran back to their new friends, trailing rope in the mud.  I knew there was no use in chasing them, so I went back home.  The humidity is high at this time of year. The outing had worked up quite a sweat, and so I jumped into the shower and focused on getting to my meeting.

Later in the day, when the horses did not return on their own, I walked back down to the river.  The land down there is thick with shrubs.  I wondered if the dogs and I had left enough scent on the trail for the horses to find their way back.  They heard me coming, and whinnied before I saw them.  I called to them, and met them half way.  I lead them through the thicket of overgrowth to the hole in the fence, and then they went on ahead of me across the overgrown field, up the embankment, and straight to their corral.

I learned that I could indeed allow them to roam free at the river’s edge, but I would need to clearly mark the way home for them.  I have a roll of tape like the police use to rope off a crime scene.  I will have to string it along the fence opening and on both sides of a path through the bush to the clearing.  Hopefully that will do the trick.  They will always come home at sunset, if they can find the way, for their evening measure of alfalfa.  In truth, they had more surprises for me.

The next I let them out of the corral again.  They grazed for a while in the newly growing grass, it being rainy season.  They eventually wandered down the embankment to the riverbed.  They must have retraced their steps to the two donkeys.  Later in the day I went to check on them, and also to try to string up the tape to guide them home.  I wandered up and down the river bank, but did not see them.  I called, but they did not answer.  I did not see a lot of fresh hoof prints, nor droppings.  I went back to the house, curious, a little concerned, but without energy to walk a few miles to track them down.  I opened the roadside gate for good measure, just in case they followed the riverbed to the road crossing.  All I could do now is wait, and trust.

Late in the afternoon, approaching dusk, they popped up over the embankment and moseyed on up to their corral, where I had laid out some alfalfa.  I closed the gate.

Having decided that I would blow off the day’s appointed meeting with Beto and the ‘chief’, I was feeling unsettled.  I could just imagine Beto showing up, the two of them having a cozy meeting, and deciding it was not necessary to do anything further to appease the old lady.  I felt the need for a go-between, to pursuade the 'chief' to see my position more clearly.  There were three people who had suggested using the malandro option.  I thought about each one, and then chose to approach Jose. 

Jose, the Carpenter, is an interesting character.  I first met him in the parking lot of Aurrera, the Walmart subsidiary.  I had just parked, when a motorcycle pulled up next to me.  Jose greeted me with a friendly smile, and struck up a conversation.  I saw a middle-aged man with a very Italian face, a nose reminiscent of my father’s.  He introduced himself as a carpenter, and gave me his phone number.  I later on did try him out on a few projects.  His work proved unreliable, but he grew on me as a friend.  One time I went away for three weeks, and he ‘housesat’ for me.  I thought that meant he and his wife would move out to my ranch and take a break in the countryside.  When I returned I found my cats well fed, my plants watered, but no sign that anyone had been in the house.

That is when I finally asked him about his limp.  It was obvious.  He spun some story about falling off his motorbike, but when he rolled up his jeans I saw a swelling or growth.  The word carbuncle came to mind.  It was not the raw wound of a fall, but more a chronic condition. 

As the months and year went by, I began to see him more and more on his motorcycle, carrying envelopes and small packages.  When I visited his small shop I saw less activity there.

One day we passed on the street and stopped to chat.  He said he was working at the municipal building.  As is typical here, there were no details, no specifics.  It was left to me to figure out from clues just what was going on.

It has been three or four years now since that first meeting.  Jose is a regular fixture at the municipal building.  My Pozole friend, Rita, sits in a anti room, perhaps she is a secretary to whomever sits in the office at the front of the building.  She has established that Jose and I are friends, so anytime I pass by and greet her she informs me that Jose was just here, or is coming right back.  I guesses he functioned as an official currier.

At dawn I sent him a message asking him to call me, as I would like to ask a favor.  He called me around 9:30.  I tried to explain what I wanted, but it was too difficult over the phone.  I quickly dressed and drove down to town, before he disappeared again.  I knew from past conversations that he had friends among the organized crime groups.  It appeared to me that everyone did, these people are well integrated into the community.  I asked him to speak with this ‘chief’ for me, to explain to the chief that my presence was not needed at yet another mediation meeting with Beto; there had been four attempts so far, through the official process with municipal ‘sindicos’ and the judge.  Jose had been in close contact with the sindicos throughout, and new all the details of those four meetings.  All I asked was that he speak with the guy by phone. 

It is human nature, isn’t it.  People never want to say ‘no’ to your face.  This was the task I needed done, no other.  I pleaded with him, if he couldn’t do it, just tell me.  Don’t tell me ‘tomorrow’, or ‘I’ll see’, or ‘I know a guy’.  I could have saved my breath.  He was silent for long moments, looking off to the distance as we sat just inside the entrance to the municipal building, on the two chairs before the reception/information desk under the stairwell.  He turned to me hopefully, ‘Maybe the President can help?”  The recently elected president of Canatlan, Angela, is also wife to a prominent member of the organized crime group.  I would be embarrassed, importuning, to think that she would care about my piddling problem.  True, Beto was an elected official who was totally abusing his office, but in the greater scheme of things what did it really matter.

I gave him a copy of the acuerdo, and the map from Google Earth, and left.

Over a number of days, and many hours sitting in their storefront waiting, in the end it came to nothing.  Perhaps if I had offered a significant amount of money, I might have gotten attention.  I did mention a payment, and was told that this was not expected.  The 'chief' arranged a meeting between me and Beto, which I felt was totally unnecessary but, whatever.  I turned up at the appointed time; Beto did not, nor the 'chief'.  That was the end of that.

I accept that my horses will have no water when they are down on the riverbed meadow.  There was a break in the public fence leading to the river, through which the horses could escape, cross the river, and wind up on the other side of the sierra.  I innocently expected that they would always come home at the end of the day.  One day, however, they did not.  At dawn I drove around, up into the sierra, to the farm where the donkeys live, but I did not see my horses anywhere.  What more could I do.  I waited.  Sure enough, in the afternoon Tocho came roaring up to my door on his motorcycle.  He started with the usual, 'I could call they police', 'they are causing damage, who will pay' kind of rhetoric.  That blew past, and I asked where they were and could I pay next week, as I was awaiting a pension check.  I changed my shoes and hopped in the car, without stopping for ropes.  He led me to a fenced in hillside.  The horses were on the horizon.  I called to them.  They came ambling down towards me, while Tocho waited and watched, off the side.  We opened the gate, the horses followed, and turned right.  My car and that way home was to the left.  Gosh.  I rushed home and grabbed some rope and returned, but by then they had disappeared.  I drove further in the direction they had walked, and realized that there is a section of the riverbank, on the opposite side from my farm, that had no fencing.  By the time I got home, the horses were in the stable munching their way through a bale of alfalfa.

With the post hole digger and a roll of barbed wire in hand, I tried to fix that part of the fence.  There was about twenty feet that needed shoring up.  I worked all morning, but just could not manage to get the poles to stand up, without cutting all the wires and starting from scratch.  I gave up.  Next day, I returned to the fence line and dragged dead branches of trees.  These seem to be the trim left over from cutting down a tree to use as a fence post.  Big gobs of smaller branches and twigs heading in all directions.  I pulled them all over to the fence line and laid them up against it.  I was able to build enough of a barrier, so that now the horses cannot escape to the river.  Surprisingly, they now seem to be willing to spend hours down there.  In the past, I would want them to go down there but after an hour, they would return.  The rains have come since then, and greened up the place.  Maybe that is why.

The fight is over.  Their side has won.  It is all meaningless egoistic chest thumping in the end.  The horses are fine, when they are thirsty they know their way back to the corral and the water trough there.  Meanwhile, they have turned the farm into a lovely pastoral scene.  The rains have greened up the fields, their grazing has left them well-trimmed, .Luz de Compasion now looks like a lovely park, which is how I had envisioned it years ago.  Life is good.

 

 

 

Wednesday, June 14, 2023

Celestial Music

 

The number 12 has deep significance across the world and cultures.  The Mayans knew the number twelve, when they crafted their calendar into twelve-month years.   Astrology divides the heavens into twelve houses.  Jesus had twelve disciples. 

More recently, in the previous decade, scientists made a major discovery of the twelfth strand, the Higs-Boson discovery, in string theory.  I only know the name from Sheldon Cooper and the Big Bang Theory, so I am spelling it wrong.

With that discovery, scientists also declare the final note, the key to the music of the universe.  The harmony produced by these strands can be heard as music.  Music and math are closely aligned.  Music has, say the scientist, 12 notes.  And so mathematicians can translate these twelve strands into music.  I am not sure who has heard this music, but this concept has been around for hundreds of years.

I have heard this celestial music. 

In the late ‘70s I was in India, studying with the Tibetans.  The tradition for them who live in the Himalayas is to get out of the freezing mountain winters by going to Bodh Gaya, a sacred place for all Buddhists.  This is the location for the ancient tale of how Shakyamuni Gautama sat under a bodhi tree for seven days, until he attained enlightenment and Buddhahood. 

One winter I was there, sleeping on the roof of one of the monasteries in a tent.  My main teacher was there also, living in the monastery.  I had a friend, a Thai monk, with whom I would hang out.  The oppressive heat of this southern region was difficult to bear, and so it was common to be awake in the late night waiting for the pre-dawn cool to descend.  The previous year I had taken a ten-day meditation course in Bodh Gaya with the Burmese teacher, Goenka.  It was an amazing, eye and soul-opening experience.  So to speak, the icing on the cake after a few years of studying under the Tibetan teachers, who tend to be intellectual, and doing their meditation retreats, which are more structured.

Goenka-ji does a lot of guided meditation and practical exercises.  Near the end of the ten-day course, I was asleep on the floor of the girls’ dorm.  Goenka-ji had told us we would be having a rare experience in our sleep.  And so it was.  Although we slept, our minds were full of cool light and we were conscious of every moment.  We all awoke feeling refreshed.  We marveled at this, how we could be both awake and asleep.  Goenka-ji had sat up all night sitting in meditation, and with his high consciousness level was able to transmit to all of us this light, this high level of consciousness.  He was showing us what we could expect if we pursued this path of consciousness expanding and purification.

I did not pursue any of his more advanced courses.  When the Tibetan/Chinese new year rolled around, I followed the lamas back to our mountain home in Himachal Pradesh.  There, in those days, we would cue up to receive the new year’s blessing from HH the Dalai Lama himself, as he sat in his home temple.  Those were simpler times, before he was awarded the Nobel Prize for Peace, before the tiny town was overrun each year with an affluent international crowd.  He knew each of us, as we presented ourselves before him for his blessing.

The following winter I found myself in Bodh Gaya hanging out with this Thai monk.  The tradition in Thailand is for boys to enter their manhood years by spending two years in a monastery, as monks.  Contrast that to the Israeli tradition of those two years spent in the military. 

He was a high-minded person.  He tried to persuade me to go to Thailand with him, to marry him and together for us to do great things to bring improvement and modernization to his small impoverished village region.  We had many philosophical discussions, as we wandered the sacred center of the temples in Bodh Gaya.  This particular night, I had bought myself a bang lasi, a precursor to the modern smoothie.  The temple plazas were deserted as we strolled, except for one where there was a group of advanced Goenka students, twenty or thirty, sitting and meditating.  As we crossed the plaza, the group was sitting on the far side of the building to our left.  I saw a glow coming from the building, as if it were lit up.  There were no street lamps then, so I thought it curious.  As we passed beyond the shadow of the building and into the lit plaza, I heard music.  I marveled at it, and asked my companion what he thought it might be.  However, he heard no music, he saw no light.

And so it is, that I have heard the celestial music of the universe.

Tuesday, March 28, 2023

The riverbed Feud

 This is more a documentation than an interesting story.  Since almost no one reads this blog, it is a convenient place for me to record important events that I can later refer to.


I am checking my little alfalfa field with my new worker, Ray.  He hears a noise, further towards the back of the land at the top of the embankment, where the path leads down to my well.  What he discovers is stunning.

Water is gushing out of the hose that brings water from the well up a 30-foot embankment to the main storage tank that supplies the entire hectare (about 2 ½ acres) with water. 

There is no doubt that this is an act of vandalism by my neighbor to the north, Juanito.  The well is on public land.  Prior to the purchase of this hectare by the Buddhist NGO, for purposes of creating a retreat center, in 2008, no one has used this well.  It is likely that it had been abandoned, because it was below flood level until the NGO built up the sides to above the flood level.

Water is tightly regulated by the Mexican government.  The government must issue a permit before a well can be dug, and no new permits are currently being issued. 

There was a complaint made about me and my horses recently.  They have been hanging out on the wide riverbed, public land protected by Federal laws.  The winter flood has produced green vegetation, whereas the higher ground of the ranch is dry. They love the open meadow and the pond. Anticipating the antagonism of my neighbor, I have been trying for weeks to get from the ConAgua office here in town the information on the state of the permit for this well, which is in the same meadow. It was dug at least one generation ago, meaning the records are not digitalized, but can only be found in the dusty record books archived in the office.  No one is interested in wasting their time going back through those old books, but me.  Unfortunately, I am still without a car.  My Toyota, which rolled over on the highway near my house on January 12, still has not been repaired by the autobody shop ten weeks later.  I had revived an old car stored on the property, but it is now out of service.  It needs four new tires, an expense I deem not defensible. 

It was Juanito’s ancestors who dug the well, presumably.  When the family lived on the property it is possible that they used the well, but the crumbled adobe house that fronts on the dirt road attests to the abandoned state of all things Terrazas.  Juanito himself lives in town, and only comes occasionally to water the little family-owned plot of land where he cultivates peas, and to fill the tub with water for the young and abandoned horse he recently bought for future plowing.

What is at the base of this act of vandalism?  I have learned that this man, poorly educated, set in his ways, and avoided by most people who can because of his known anger and pettiness, is to be treated with kid gloves and only when absolutely necessary.  If I see him on the land I wave, and pass a greeting.  Never would I stop to have a chat with him.  As for water for his crops, he has his own well and pump, in his field high above the riverbed embankment.

When this failed retreat center was abandoned, Juanito was given permission to farm the land in exchange for watching over it.  He relied on rainfall for the irrigation of it.  There is a rickety little gate he used to pass through.  In time, we both stop using that gate.  Just on my side of the gate, a foot away there is a water spigot.  I put a dual faucet on it, because he wanted to have a hose connected to it.  In time this became problematic, when he would leave the water on and I would find myself without water, the central tank drained.  Occasionally I would unwittingly do this to myself.  I might turn the water on to irrigate the little peach orchard, and forget to turn it off.  I would know, the next morning, because I would open my kitchen tap and nothing would come out.  Then I would have to check all 8 of the garden faucets, and turn off the forgotten one. 

After a while it seemed absurd, to extend this courtesy to someone who does not want to be a good neighbor.  It annoyed me a little, but I didn’t want to irritate this boil on my butt.

One day I discovered that water was gushing out of that very same shared spigot.  During the night, a horse had kicked the pipe at its base and fractured it.  I had to turn off the water at the central valve, to stop the flooding of the corral.  It took a few days to finally get to the store and buy the necessary parts.  Over the course of a couple of days, we cut the broken pipe, glued the new one on, and once the glue was dry, opened the water again.  I had instructed the worker to simply cut the offending piece and put a collar on it, keeping the same pipe and dual faucets.  However, he misunderstood and removed the old pipe completely.  Juanito’s hose could not simply be unscrewed, because he had fastened it to the spigot with a stretched piece of tire rubber.  I had to slice through it with a razor blade in order to remove the faucet.  I finally replaced the faucet with a single spigot I had on hand.  The old dual faucet had lost its handle, and was difficult to use.

Could that have been the precipitating event that led to this act of vandalism?  Not only had he cut open my main water hose, he also barred the gate that leads down to my well.  He drove a mighty tree trunk into the muddy ground on the far side of the gate, preventing it from opening.  In recent days he had been scaring my horses, chasing them out of the meadow. Then he fastened the gate closed with barbed wire. This is the gate leading to my well. I would cut through the wire, and he would bind it shut again. The first time he barred the path with poles, they were light enough for me to remove. I try not to be provoked by his shenanigans, but this one was a bit far.  I had Ray dig out the huge tree trunk, and carry it to the front of the property where we then placed it in his pea plot.  Yes, it crushed a few plants, but did not damage their roots.  Tempting though it was to apply hillbilly justice and, in the dark of night, tear up the plants in his little garden, I cannot bring myself to carry out such an act of vandalism.

Ray fixed the hose, and water was restored to the ranch.  In the afternoon Juan showed up, and signaled that he wanted me to come outside and talk.  I was sitting in front of the TV, relaxing.  He would not go away.  Finally, I went to my sliding glass door and, in an irritated voice, reminded him and his son that I had found my water line cut and my access to my well blocked.  I shut the door and went back to my chair.  I could see no grounds for a conversation, that would likely have him justifying his vicious acts.  It would not have been a two-way, rational conversation.

That evening, before Ray left to return home, he called me to look at the gate, the same place where we had found the morning’s act of vandalism.   Now what we found was my well pump, its motor with wires cut, and the gate blocked not only with a tree trunk but also with barbed wire.  I was outraged at the unprovoked vandalism.  This man has no fear of the law.  I was within my rights to call the police, and report that my water supply had been maliciously cut off.

It is useful, in the telling of the tale, to go back a week or two in time.  This man had registered a complaint with the village elected official.  It is winter, meaning that the ground is dry and bare.  The horses have nothing to graze on.  I feed them oat hay, and the occasional malted barley grain mix, but it is not a sufficiently balanced diet for them.  It is also boring for them to spend the day in the dry dusty corral.  Therefore, I have been letting them go down to the riverbed, where the well is.  It is shady there, and green.  It has been flooded by river overflow for November and December, and so had some green growth for the horses to enjoy.  There are a number of springs down there, too, which feed little pools.  The horses loved it, and could spend eight hours a day there with no complaint.

The riverbed is officially public land, owned by the government, and may not be privatized by fences impeding public access.  That, at least, is the law. 

Local custom has its own interpretation of public land use.  Certain farmers believe that the public land contiguous to their private land is for their exclusive private use.

Juanito went to the local representative and registered a complaint, because my horses were grazing on ‘his’ land. 

The public land contiguous to my private land has been confiscated by my neighbor to the south.  He has no use for this land except for a few months in the summer, when he brings about ten beef cattle to his land to graze.  Being unused, it is thick with both old trees and young trees. The horses, being prey animals, are skittish at any sound. They need an open space, a wide horizon of visibility.  There is plenty of room on his elevated hectare for that small a herd, plus a water supply brought by a public pump.  The pump is turned on by request from a farmer, who pays for the water pumped to irrigate his field.  There is a tank of water always present in this installation, available to the cows.  Nice setup.  However, this neighbor has also confiscated the public land adjacent to his own private land (at least another hectare) as well as mine.  I had talked to him once about it, asking him to give me access to my land, and he flat out refused, no discussion.

Now, as it turns out, he has just been elected to the three-year stint as the local authority in our little village.  And so it was to him that Juanito complained.  This neighbor cum official came to me with this complaint.  He admitted that Juanito had no documentation proving that he had an exclusive right to this land.  I was only vaguely conscious that the riverbed was public land, but I did not know the specific boundaries of this land nor the laws governing it.  However, when I realized that for two months the land just below the embankment, including around my well, was flooded, it began to dawn on me that this all was indeed federal flood zone.

I was puzzled by Beto, my neighbor to the south, coming to me with this complaint.  I struggled to come up with a reason why my horses there would bother Juanito.  He agreed that it was public land, but that Juanito was just being a bad neighbor.  So I said to him, I said, Well then, Beto, how about you being a good neighbor and letting me put my horses on my own part of the public land.  Oh, no, he says.  Absolutely not.  He had documentation proving he had exclusive right to use that land, he proclaimed.  We would meet again next week, Tuesday or Wednesday, and he would show me the documentation.  The week came and went, and I did not hear from him again.  When it came down to the showdown, of course this proved to be a spurious claim, a bold bluff.

My dear friend in Canatlan, Lupita, heard my concern that I was in dispute with my neighbors over use of public land.  She, who knows everyone in Canatlan, reported this to the local ‘sydicato’.  Being ignorant as I am of the local government structure, I am still hazy on the role of this person.  In the land of hillbilly justice, it appears that it is a full-time job to keep the peace between the various Hatfields and McCoys. I don’t know how to translate his title, but he is not police and not a lawyer.  He has an office in the municipal building, and Lupita found him easily.  This was on Friday.

On Monday morning I got a call from a pleasant masculine voice, telling me that he was coming to visit me.  I was just heading to Canatlan myself, and had to turn around and return to Pozole.  We met in the village, and I led him to the ranch.

He explained that there had been some dispute about land, and wanted to see for himself what was at issue.  We walked down the embankment, and before he got halfway down the 30 feet he exclaimed about all the illegal fencing he was seeing.  We walked to the river bank, and his assistant took photos.  It was a short visit.  Manuel was still working for me at the time, and was well-versed on the situation.  He was able to more fully explain matters where my Spanish failed me.  Now fully informed, he went back to his office and his busy schedule.

A week had passed since Beto failed to show me his documentation.  The syndicato called me and informed me of a meeting the next day, at my ranch, with my neighbors.  My dear friend Phillip, a Mexican-American, joined the team as my interpreter.  He met the group in Pozole and had a pre-meeting with them.  The meeting was already begun by the time they arrived at my place.  The syndicato and his assistant had brought along the judge (I would call her an ombudsman, a mediator) and her assistant.  My two neighbors showed up; it was quite a little crowd, standing there in the shade of my storehouse.  The absurd facts came out.  The law says that there can be no private structures on public lands, like fences, so both Beto and Juanito are in the wrong.  Nevertheless, the two neighbors felt like I should contain my horses, and not allow them in their fenced area.  Beto was then asked to produce evidence that he had claim over the riverbank contiguous to my property.  What he came up with was a permit from ConAgua giving him permission to use the water in a pool that was actually within my property line.  Of course, this cannot justify his fencing of my area.  Nor does it give him exclusive rights to use that public water.  Another part of the law says that no one can graze on the public land animals that are for commercial use.  Since his cattle are not milk cows, it is evident that he is raising them to sell them.  But, as I say, local justice here outweighs federal law.

In the end, the official report of this meeting is that Beto gives me permission to open up the fencing and allow my horses onto my area.  However, I must build a fence on the south side of this stretch, to keep them wandering over to his area.  He also graciously agreed that I could share the public pool.  My last request, which I do not believe got put into the final report, was that he construct a fence separating his land from the public land. 

It took a week for me to gather up the necessary resources to build that fence.  That was a harrowing week.  The horses felt confined and insecure in my section of the riverbank, since it was overgrown with trees.  They would invariably wind up climbing the embankment to Beto’s field, where the horses’ view of the horizon was unobstructed.  Horses are prey animals.  They want to be able to see a predator coming well before they are attacked.  When they are on my public land, they must rely on their ears more than their eyes, and so are easily spooked by sounds.  One day I was sitting down there with them.  I turned on an audiobook.  The horses heard the strange voices, and started stampeding to the embankment to escape.  I called to them, and they realized they were safe.

That whole week was a nail biter.  At first I would continue to let the horses go down to their spot by the well.  I sat with them there.  Juanito was pacing above the embankment, seeing the horses and working up his wrath.  Then he spotted me.  Before he could explode, I told him I had not yet managed to open a passage through Beto’ wire, I needed another day or two.  He held up two fingers.  Two days, that was all he would allow me.  I finally found wire cutters that worked, and cut through a span of wire on my own land.  The embankment there is crumbling.  It is scary trying to go down, the earth sliding beneath my feet.  Thankfully, horses are more sure-footed than me, but I still worried they could twist an ankle. 

When they would go up onto Beto’s land I felt nervous.  I expected a call at any time, chastising me again for letting my horses run wild.  I climbed through the wire fencing, went to the horses, clipped a rope on them and tried to lead them back down and to our own space.  I would lead them to the embankment and urge them to go down.  It was too steep for me to climb easily, and so I could not lead them.  Sometimes they would go, sometimes they would balk and run off.  Eventually they showed me their preferred path.  At the south point furthest from my land, the embankment smoothed out to a mild slope.  Problem was, the horses could see their corral to the north, so close across the fence, and did not want to be led away in the opposite direction.  I thought horses were so smart, but they could not learn that to get home, they had to walk away.  That week I spent hours chasing after the horses.  One day I just let the horses go down to their preferred spot, below Juanito’s land.  After a short time I returned Cinderella to her corral,  but Patas was not cooperating.  Soon enough I saw him in Juanito’s fallow field!  I went after him, but the gate separating the field from the riverbank was still closed.  How had the horse gotten into the field?  As it turns out, Juanito has neglected his fencing maintenance, and so the horse climbed a steep embankment and walked across the wire lying on the ground.  He left his mark a time or two before I could get him back down the embankment and over to his corral.  The next day I saw Juanito and his adult son standing over a lump of manure, heads down, hands on their hips, heads shaking.  Oh, how they would extract justice for this outrage.

Then came the horse busting a pipe.  Then began the acts of vandalism.

I received the third call from my new friend, the Syndicato.  I would learn later that Juanito made a number of harassing calls.  I heard from Jhampa in Torreon, the founder of Luz de Compasion, telling me that my horses were disturbing Juanito. 

The evening that I found myself without water, due to the removal of the well pump, I was filled with fear and rage.  I contacted my lawyer, in Durango.  He had told me that it was important to keep peace with my neighbors, in order for his legal efforts, to get the land deed put in my name, to succeed.  His response was compassionate.  He contacted the judge and informed her that he would be at the meeting with Juanito the next day. 

The usual suspects were present.  My lawyer was my translator this day, since he was raised in Canada before returning to Mexico to join his father’s law firm.  Beto was in California, visiting family, but his local alternate was present, a Mr. Quiñones.  We expected Juanito to join us.  While waiting for Juanito to show up, my lawyer made a masterful defense of my position.  It buoyed my spirits, lifting me from fear and anxiety.  When Juanito did not turn up, the group divided into two.  They would go back to the municipal offices and write up a report, while my Lawyer and I would go looking for Juanito.  First we went to his cousin’s house in Pozole.  Me and my lawyer walking into her living room put the fear of God in her.  She suddenly didn’t know any phone numbers; she gave a description of how to find his house.  It is not unusual that there is no street name or number.  Not knowing the town of Canatlan that well, we wandered in Gustavo’s car for a while.  Lupita called me and asked how the meeting had gone.  I told her, and said we were looking for Juanito’s home.  She said she’d call me back.  Five minutes later she called, and gave us exact directions on how to find his house.  She was at the weekly flea market, and was able to quickly round up the information.

The lawyer went into the house.  I guess he talked with Anna, Juanito’s wife.  At any rate, he learned that Juanito had a job in Tepehuanes, and came home in ten-day intervals.

Power politics has more sway than the law in this culture.  I am determined that if that menacing neighbor commits any further acts of vandalism, I will indeed call the local police.  This is like the power of a candle verses a 100-watt bulb, but it is a statement nevertheless. 

Gustavo told me a story that raised more questions in my mind than gave answers.  His father’s firm is handling the case of Martha’s murder at the hands of her brother and sister-in-law.  This is how I met the firm in the first place; I was the one to find Martha’s body on the road near my house, a year and a half ago.  He said that they had nearly gotten Gloria released, but Memo was going to be locked up for a long time.  Days before the expected release, ‘organized crime’ stepped in and took over the case.  Because of this Gloria’s release would be delayed a week or two, but she would soon be released.

What?  Organized crime can come in and take over a legal case?  There is no need-to-know on my behalf, but I do hope that one day I can sit with Gustavo and learn about this world.  I know that Mexico does not have a functioning government, that it is hopelessly corrupt.  Having lived in so many other countries, experiencing to some extent other governmental structures, I am very curious to know more about the country I am living in now.  It is frustrating to see all the potential around me, and the severe disfunction on all levels.

The vandalism continues.  A new tree trunk is put down in the soft earth, softened by the gushing water from the cut supply hose.  I have stopped employing a worker, due to the expense, so I am left to my own devices to restore water.  It takes many hours, spread over two days, to remover the heavy and deep tree trunk.  The hose, now shortened, requires me to cut a piece to patch into the gap.  The hose is very thick, I cannot find anything on hand to cut it.  I walk over to my neighbors, and ask to borrow something for cutting it.  He lends me a saw.  I have everything else on hand, the two connectors, the cinch rings, the tape.  I manage to put a tight patch on the line.  Now I bury it, and haul gravel and pebbles to cover it, and a few bricks on top.  There remains only for me to lift out this very heavy trunk, and fill the deep hole.  The temperature is around 90 degrees, at noon.  I did not think I could lift the trunk, it is very heavy.  I persisted in digging and tugging, digging and pulling, until at last it was free.  I hauled it onto my land, some feet away from the gate.  It would  be useful as a fence post.  There is still more digging to be done to fill in the gaping hole.  It is a trap, I could fall into it while  trying to get to my well, so I needed to fill it and finish burying my hose.  But my heart is racing, I am becoming dizzy.  At last I have to stop.  I sit down in the shade for a few minutes, until my head stops spinning.  I gath4er my strength to walk back to the house, but my legs are shaking, I feel like I will pass out.  I sink into my recliner, and cannot move for the rest of the afternoon, as I recover.  I am hungry, but without a car my food supply is low, and my energy to cook is on empty.  At least, I am pleased that I did not give up and managed to repair the damage caused by the neighbor’s vandalism. 

That evening I go back to try to finish filling the hole, and discover that there is a new post put in place barring my gate.  I see mud from recent water flowing, hinting that they have somehow accessed my buried hose and opened it.  They even came onto m land and hauled off the big tree trunk I had removed, which I thought I could salvage as a fence post.  I went back to the house and called Lupita.  I would borrow her car tomorrow and make a report to the police.  Enough with turning the other cheek.