May I have your permission to kvetch for just a little?
I'm getting tired of this. It is all so overwhelming. I wear too many hats, I fear I do no task completely well, but all half-baked and some not even tepid. The latter refers to bookkeeping and cost accounting.
I decided to do more of the Sunday brunches, because people seemed to so enjoy the last one. But here we are four days away from the next, and one person has signed up for it (it is RSVP).
Meanwhile, I run myself ragged trying to anticipate what I will need, like fruit juice, salt and pepper shakers for each table, more savory items beyond the scope of the bakery menu, and on and on.
Here it is July 30, the day before payday, and I haven't nearly enough to pay my two employees.
I am spending what little money I have on buying all the prep for a Sunday Brunch.
Why?
I am feeling totally overwhelmed. I took on the new shop, the series of miracles seemed to point the way. But now the vision is more like a mirage than a miracle.
Han Dan has abandoned me. She had texted me that she was so eager to work with me, when her own coffee shop closed. So she came. She hauled with her a lot of her stuff that she wanted me to buy. But then she left me, to work in a real estate office. She came by to pick up a Taobao order that she had shipped to this address, and to pick up some money I owed her. I told her that I thought I might have an investor, and I was prepared to pay Han Dan whatever she wanted, as long as she helped me set up the new shop.
Finally, a few days later, she texted me that she wants 5500 rmb/month. Just for reference, this is the same total sum of my current payroll, for Julie and for XiaoLan combined.
I said I couldn't commit to that right now. The investor has not come up with any money. I said that if she is making that kind of money, why would she want to quit? She said indeed, she liked to spend money on clothes and a good time, and so she couldn't work for me for less.
Then I realized that she had the impression that I was rich, and that's why she wanted to work for me. What a disappointment! I thought she was a sweet, very intelligent girl with a great personality. Turns out she just a Material Girl.
I hate owing money. And now that is where I find myself. I have not come up with an idea or solid plan for the new space that would earn enough to pay my obligations.
Randy came by today to tell me that he thought the price I was asking for the buffet was too high. I talked with Libby, and she said that our ladies didn't mind, because they understood I was fund-raising. So I decided I needed to lower it.
I went on Facebook and reduced the price from 139 to 115 rmb. I also detailed more of the non baked goods menu items.
A lot of people I know tell me that this Sunday isn't going to work for them, for one reason or another. Some have classes scheduled, others are out of town, and such. Just bad timing, I guess.
And yet I will go through the effort, nonetheless.
I am tired. December begins to loom large, as a target date for moving to Florida.
I'm getting tired of this. It is all so overwhelming. I wear too many hats, I fear I do no task completely well, but all half-baked and some not even tepid. The latter refers to bookkeeping and cost accounting.
I decided to do more of the Sunday brunches, because people seemed to so enjoy the last one. But here we are four days away from the next, and one person has signed up for it (it is RSVP).
Meanwhile, I run myself ragged trying to anticipate what I will need, like fruit juice, salt and pepper shakers for each table, more savory items beyond the scope of the bakery menu, and on and on.
Here it is July 30, the day before payday, and I haven't nearly enough to pay my two employees.
I am spending what little money I have on buying all the prep for a Sunday Brunch.
Why?
I am feeling totally overwhelmed. I took on the new shop, the series of miracles seemed to point the way. But now the vision is more like a mirage than a miracle.
Han Dan has abandoned me. She had texted me that she was so eager to work with me, when her own coffee shop closed. So she came. She hauled with her a lot of her stuff that she wanted me to buy. But then she left me, to work in a real estate office. She came by to pick up a Taobao order that she had shipped to this address, and to pick up some money I owed her. I told her that I thought I might have an investor, and I was prepared to pay Han Dan whatever she wanted, as long as she helped me set up the new shop.
Finally, a few days later, she texted me that she wants 5500 rmb/month. Just for reference, this is the same total sum of my current payroll, for Julie and for XiaoLan combined.
I said I couldn't commit to that right now. The investor has not come up with any money. I said that if she is making that kind of money, why would she want to quit? She said indeed, she liked to spend money on clothes and a good time, and so she couldn't work for me for less.
Then I realized that she had the impression that I was rich, and that's why she wanted to work for me. What a disappointment! I thought she was a sweet, very intelligent girl with a great personality. Turns out she just a Material Girl.
I hate owing money. And now that is where I find myself. I have not come up with an idea or solid plan for the new space that would earn enough to pay my obligations.
Randy came by today to tell me that he thought the price I was asking for the buffet was too high. I talked with Libby, and she said that our ladies didn't mind, because they understood I was fund-raising. So I decided I needed to lower it.
I went on Facebook and reduced the price from 139 to 115 rmb. I also detailed more of the non baked goods menu items.
A lot of people I know tell me that this Sunday isn't going to work for them, for one reason or another. Some have classes scheduled, others are out of town, and such. Just bad timing, I guess.
And yet I will go through the effort, nonetheless.
I am tired. December begins to loom large, as a target date for moving to Florida.
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